Floating
It’s easy to sort of float through life when your everyday routine is the same. I have the same 6:00 am wake up time, getting ready for work, nap on the train, get through the day then come home. I suppose I use this as the reason as to why I don’t post much. I feel as if there isn’t much to write about, or that at least nobody would be interested in reading what I have to say.
I don’t want to flit through everyday and not stop to appreciate things. I’m not the most sentimental type, I don’t get attached to things easily which is something I acknowledge. This is why I suppose I fall easily into not taking the time when I should.
I don’t want to be ungrateful. I don’t want to lose out on the very precious, very short time we have on this Earth but I let my own inhibitions stop me. There are times where my ability to feel happiness surprises me. It sneaks up on me, unexpectedly and sometimes I forget to take a step back and savour the moment and just let it sink in how blessed I am. I work in an industry I love, and I’m surrounded by friends who listen to me and care. That’s an embarrassment of riches for just about anybody.
When I was 13 I had written a list of things I wanted to accomplish by the time I turned 20. I no longer have this list but suffice it to say, I doubt very much that I had accomplished even half of it. Priorities change, after all and I think I’m getting better in tuned to understand what it is God has planned for me. He made me with a purpose and I’ve struggled constantly with what that is but I know figuring that out is part of the journey.
It should be a good one.
